I need you to whisper,
keep you voice low,
everyone is listening
To every word we say
You may think its nothing
but it's much too serious
To not give the attention
that this truly deserves.
Tell me what it is
that i've been doing
Tell me what it is
That i"ve been doing wrong
Tell me what it is that
I've been doing wrong...all along!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Friday, January 7, 2011
More recently...
An Elemental Dream
The smallest movement is the one that gets noticed,
So I try to run with grandeur
Because I've grown fond of the invisibility.
I only need to know my own direction.
Or I can soar with a gust of wind.
Set me past the clouds
Be careful not to drop me now.
A whirlwind affair that easily sets me anywhere
Cast me into the deepest sea,
Mariana Trench will you marry me?
Keep me cradled in you breast
As I sleep through my eternal rest.
Fill my lungs with the purest waves
Or I shall seek the brightest burning flames
As I walk through searing tongues
So the heat licks my body numb
With the coals no longer black
They glow deep reds and crumble into ash
The softest gray silt I've ever touched
Never have I longed for anything so much
But to lay my head upon the dust
So I may dream, and scheme, and lust
But all of this is one grand lie
I don't know why I even try
Because I'm still here invisible to you all
I do not move
Not an inch, not a mile, not at all.
Because I've grown fond of the invisibility.
I only need to know my own direction.
Or I can soar with a gust of wind.
Set me past the clouds
Be careful not to drop me now.
A whirlwind affair that easily sets me anywhere
Cast me into the deepest sea,
Mariana Trench will you marry me?
Keep me cradled in you breast
As I sleep through my eternal rest.
Fill my lungs with the purest waves
Or I shall seek the brightest burning flames
As I walk through searing tongues
So the heat licks my body numb
With the coals no longer black
They glow deep reds and crumble into ash
The softest gray silt I've ever touched
Never have I longed for anything so much
But to lay my head upon the dust
So I may dream, and scheme, and lust
But all of this is one grand lie
I don't know why I even try
Because I'm still here invisible to you all
I do not move
Not an inch, not a mile, not at all.
Accept No Substitutes
Upon a hazy July morning
He knelt to smell the roses
Just to notice all the wrong
About face he retreated homeward
Only to find his weapon of choice
He released the fearful blows
But still she smiled strongly
As the plaster chipped from her lips
Those piercing eyes that he created
The work of stone is just a dream
Now let me bleed my thoughts upon you
Some tragedies end in happiness
The truth he began to see is
He knew the beauty of dreams
But it is always better to hold and touch
...the real thing.
It Wasn't Me
Never mind the yellow tape
I'll be cautious for the both of us
Don't be bothered by the flashing lights
If its a problem we can always hide
Just keep on running dear youre doing fine
But keep up the pace we're not too far now
Its about that time and then the fires spread
Please brace yourself I need you so
I couldnt fight the same without you near
The traps were set but we must hide
The want to make it seem like you and I
Are masterminds to a destructive game
But dead or alive we're worth just the same
Corrections
Ive vowed to remember those I've harmed
Count the notches on my club
If I see you amongst the crowd
My weapon is now yours
Make of me what you will
If this is what it takes
To save others from my heavy hand
I'll do what must be done
Use my face as a target
I'll keep count of every swing for you
I just need you to count my stitches
Hold no grudge I've let mine go
I lower my head to take every blow
When I walk away from this
We'll both be better people
I've given up on giving pain
Have you given up on taking it
The only way to save ourselves
Is to take torture we have dealt
Then everything will all make sense
Id give it all up to take it all back
Now that Ive seen my wrongs
A Withered End
I can see everything so clearly
As I'm looking through her eyes
What was it that made you run so far
This one is the answer to all of man's problems
I need to free my thoughts; unleashed,
As they are confined to these padded walls
Clarity is all that I asked for
And she is the crutch Ive needed
She has the touch that has left me feeling...
Drained of all my humanly ideals
Not even enough to walk on two legs
I now understand her pain; I crawl
On hands and feet I ran a distance
Tired; torn and bloodied, rest is not an option
Although this is near unbearable I stop
Retrace my steps I know she hurts as well
All whom she touches will suffer
Yet I've found the pain so comforting
Again I can stand, my thoughts again whole
I have become an enlightened soul
Nothing can challenge the strength of our tie
I can see through any adversity
She will revert your world back to silence
We have found our reasons to exist
I the sightless have the light of the world
Her darkness has been overcome
Together we wither away
[Untitled]
Many of us float on
Anonymous to all but ourselves
no desire to be found again
No desire to ever be known
The ones we loved are lost
To us, The vanished with our hearts
Undiscovered we chose to remain
As solitude is our only friend
While we may be nameless
We once had labels
But float along we live on
Toward the sunset of our memories
Play for Keeps
My bandages keep my pieces from separating
Fragmented, I've lost plenty on the road most avoid
I've never been a wise one to gambling
A deck of cards would have sufficed
Not for me, spin the roulette wheel for life
Play for keeps, what was once a game is so much worse
The concept is simple, the consequences drastic
When the wheel stops the hammer is tossed
A handful of metal, smoke and pain is what remains
I once heard that a bullet never lies
Sometimes it doesn't completely destroy
But shatters all that lies in its path
Now here i stand feebly and mummified
Not quite alive or well but breathing
Once my recovery is complete
I just may return for another spin
Weakness of a God
I was blown away once
The smile worn filtered the debris
Shrapnel grazed across finger tips
I once was invincible
Those days are far beyond past tense
Metamorphosis is not saved for insects
Rather than adding to my impervious skin
I was robbed of my gift; my curse
Riddled with holes, feeling has returned
Leaving me human.
Into the Darkness of Slumber
Sleepless thoughts cloud my judgment,
Difficulty separating fact from fiction,
Tidal waves of delusioned ideas flood,
While my brain sponges and absorbs obscurities,
I travel through my fantasy world blindly,
A place haunted with myriads of nightmares,
One never needs sight in their own thoughts,
Extra sensory pulses pull me to the core,
At the heart of it all lies a puzzle,
A many faceted game of complex proportions,
My walking fingers twist and pry,
The game untampered is but a lock,
But when defeated it gives light an opportunity,
To exist and mingle among the tarnished,
Offering a mild tranquility to my troubled mind,
Like a cool breeze through the desert heat,
Shedding its glow to even the most minute corners,
Pleasantries are welcomed at any time,
Yet this moment the most sought artform,
Is the involuntary creation of a dream,
With heavy eyes and clearer vision,
I slumber calmer than the ancient dead.
Many doubts!!
I watch the passers by and wonder,
where do I belong in this whole charade.
We follow motions but for what purpose,
and we wear our masks to hide our face.
Is there a cure for all our worries,
Something undiscovered or left unsaid,
A miracle to keep us going,
A cure that keeps as far from death.
We search and struggle with empty pockets,
Some still stand and others crumble.
When all our answers are far from simple,
Hands in prayer, people humble.
Again within me I hold my doubt,
I've learned to keep faith unwavering
But my mind tells me otherwise,
Not to trust, not to be saved.
Its hard for me to leave it all,
My cross still hangs in place.
Am I so wrong for not believing,
Every single word i've heard?
So here I am now, at a point,
I can't see which way to turn!
But I know that I am not alone,
Others have been here berfore.
What did they choose, should I follow?
All these thoughts become a chore.
So as I lay my head and drift,
I try to recall some of my prayers,
Were they at all answered,
No they weren't, not completely,
Well that's what I saw to say the least,
God must have skipped me.
But who really knows maybe he's waiting,
Until I really need help, and then he will save me.
But who really knows, I have no real clue,
Who, What and Where is this god all about?
So I turn off my mind and go on with my habits,
Our Father, Amen,Good Night, and I'm out.
Old Poetry pt. 7 - Final
Versus...
Beware the scorpion
She leaves her mark
Her bite won't poison
But her stinger sharp
Will bring you down
Down to you knees
Without a sound
Feels like a dream
This is a nightmare
She brought her claws
I brought my fire
And she saw my flaws
She knows no meaning
To the word gently
Thought she could have anything
Until she met me!!
She leaves her mark
Her bite won't poison
But her stinger sharp
Will bring you down
Down to you knees
Without a sound
Feels like a dream
This is a nightmare
She brought her claws
I brought my fire
And she saw my flaws
She knows no meaning
To the word gently
Thought she could have anything
Until she met me!!
A Story to Sell
I'm sorry Judge but I...
I don't even have to lie
My eyes will tell my story
Theres nothing for me to hide
I ran away
Long before the trouble came
They found me the next day
....
I Remember
This time isn't so sad
I have plenty to remember
Like running through the tall grass
And those long nights in December
I know I always see it
When I wake and shit my eyes
The family that I love
Same one I left behind
Don't think I ran from you
I needed space to grow
I sing this for you now
Just want to let you know
You mean more than the world
All day I think of you
The ones who kept me sane
After all that I've gone through
Old Poetry pt. 6
The Fall
Some times I feel like I'm falling
From way up high through the clouds
Land at my back, arms spread apart
Wind all around whipping hair all about
And I pick up speed constant
But no worries surface
I'm drowning in sunshine
I'm clearing my mind
My fall is my blessing
With the landing I'll die
My smile will remain
Like clouds during rain
Watch birds and planes all the same
Clouds join me without a question
Holding my heart, failure achieved
Crashing below everything bleeds
Storm Chaser
Prodigal Son
I ran until my feet were raw and numb
Until there was no air in my lungs
Until the distant hue of street lights
Just blended with the starry sky
The deepest purple of the clouds
And I remember every single sound
The memory as fresh as yesterday
I couldn't take it so I ran away
With no shoes to shield my heels
The clothes were left for me to peel
Off from my bruised and tired body
Why did you have to hurt me?
I was so young and alone
To feel like I could never go home
Waiting within the dreaded place
The one who meant to change my face
There was no reason
to do what was done
I try forgetting
But then I see the sun
Never will I see the same
It all happened so fast
I try forgiving
But I relive the past
What made me deserve your hand
The war between boy and man
No one came out victorious
The sacrifice, far from glorious
I take the pain and keep it close
It helps me when I need it most
To clear things up to realize
There aren't many by my side
Broken Mind
Inevitably he knows whats happening
Always feeling like someones after him
Minds are fragile but his is broken
Gladly would he take the pills
Only thing he believes can help
Imagining he is cured of madness
Not realizing the constant damage
Get ready for the let down, its a hard fall
Creating the illusions of happiness
Ready for something better
All the world will seem brighter
Zero proof that it will be useful
Yet he firmly grips to medicine
Have you seen the man before
Everyone is looking but no one knows
Losing all thats left of his broken mind
Please if you see him help him find
More than what hes after guide him
Else he'll be lost disillusioned
Passing through what might remain
Losing his focus for a few pills a day
Ease him back to what he was
As soon as he quits there may be hope
Saving whats left of the broken dreams
Everything might be special again
Some times I feel like I'm falling
From way up high through the clouds
Land at my back, arms spread apart
Wind all around whipping hair all about
And I pick up speed constant
But no worries surface
I'm drowning in sunshine
I'm clearing my mind
My fall is my blessing
With the landing I'll die
My smile will remain
Like clouds during rain
Watch birds and planes all the same
Clouds join me without a question
Holding my heart, failure achieved
Crashing below everything bleeds
Storm Chaser
Pouring rain over me
Filling my eyes
Until I can't see
With lies I've told
and games played
A statement bold
I can't take it back
but I might make it right
how long will it last
You came and I left
I lost all control
I came and you left
I have no where to turn
No where to run
The stinging rain burns
It will always hang low
Unless you're around
and somehow it goes
All apologies
For all my bullshit
I'm on my knees
I won't beg or plead
Don't bother asking
Its not what I need
The end nearly calls
I'm here for mercy
To accept my flaws
Filling my eyes
Until I can't see
With lies I've told
and games played
A statement bold
I can't take it back
but I might make it right
how long will it last
You came and I left
I lost all control
I came and you left
I have no where to turn
No where to run
The stinging rain burns
It will always hang low
Unless you're around
and somehow it goes
All apologies
For all my bullshit
I'm on my knees
I won't beg or plead
Don't bother asking
Its not what I need
The end nearly calls
I'm here for mercy
To accept my flaws
Prodigal Son
I ran until my feet were raw and numb
Until there was no air in my lungs
Until the distant hue of street lights
Just blended with the starry sky
The deepest purple of the clouds
And I remember every single sound
The memory as fresh as yesterday
I couldn't take it so I ran away
With no shoes to shield my heels
The clothes were left for me to peel
Off from my bruised and tired body
Why did you have to hurt me?
I was so young and alone
To feel like I could never go home
Waiting within the dreaded place
The one who meant to change my face
There was no reason
to do what was done
I try forgetting
But then I see the sun
Never will I see the same
It all happened so fast
I try forgiving
But I relive the past
What made me deserve your hand
The war between boy and man
No one came out victorious
The sacrifice, far from glorious
I take the pain and keep it close
It helps me when I need it most
To clear things up to realize
There aren't many by my side
Broken Mind
Inevitably he knows whats happening
Always feeling like someones after him
Minds are fragile but his is broken
Gladly would he take the pills
Only thing he believes can help
Imagining he is cured of madness
Not realizing the constant damage
Get ready for the let down, its a hard fall
Creating the illusions of happiness
Ready for something better
All the world will seem brighter
Zero proof that it will be useful
Yet he firmly grips to medicine
Have you seen the man before
Everyone is looking but no one knows
Losing all thats left of his broken mind
Please if you see him help him find
More than what hes after guide him
Else he'll be lost disillusioned
Passing through what might remain
Losing his focus for a few pills a day
Ease him back to what he was
As soon as he quits there may be hope
Saving whats left of the broken dreams
Everything might be special again
Old Poetry pt. 5
A Farewell of Sorts
I see it in your eyes,
I wasn't what you wanted,
Don't hide behind some lie,
When did you plan to tell me
You found something better,
were you waiting for a while
Would you write it in a letter,
Please just save your paper.
This is nothing I can't handle
But this time my hearts been torn
So don't bother with that candle
I'm not coming home anymore
I guess this is goodbye
Its time for me go
In need of my own time
To figure some things out
Was it all a waste
To help you to your feet
Because you look away
While I wait here by the street.
Its nothing I can't handle
I've been here once before
Felt the heat of battle
Another leaves me sore
This time its cutting close
But I know I'll make it through
My friend it just shows
I just couldn't ever trust you
How to Stand (more of a poem to myself)
There I sat
All alone
While everything
Passed by me
And I heard
Many voices
Offering me
Many choices
Still I wait
Let time pass
another day
May be my last
Now I hear
Many voices
Offer me
Many choices
I take my time
To do things right
When I fall it
Only hurts a while
Still I hear
All the Voices
Offering me
All those choices
Time to think
Decisions to make
Paths a plenty
No time for mistakes
I will hear
Many Voices
Always offer
Many Choices
Older and wiser
Learned from the fall
Because of the lessons
Forever stand tall
If You Only Knew
For as long as I have known
Shes been the one for me
The feelings I can't hide
But still she just doesn't see
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time
We have a way of finding
One another at awkward times
When I'm busy working
Or standing in a grocery line
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time
And right on cue it happens
I can feel the rising heat
If you only knew how I felt
It could have been something sweet
If all goes well she'll realize
That I've been here waiting
Just keeping myself occupied
For the day that she is ready
Because...
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love your voice
Your gorgeous eyes
Ill keep you close
Until the end of time
While You Were Sleeping
I watched you as you drifted off
And floated in these awful thoughts
I knew you had another place
And false was the love you gave
I reflected and pondered what to do
The thought of up and leaving you
Clear as day; I knew for sure
That I just had to leave you here
While you were sleeping
Memories creeping
Haunting me to choose
While you were sleeping
I just kept thinking
Either way I go I'm going to lose
Someone hidden under all that hair
Deceptive plans to keep me there
I found a clue and I caught on
Such shame that it took so long
So standing with my things in hand
One more glance at what I had
I know now that none of this was mine
Because of what you chose to hide
A Pill a Day
There is no point to blame
Every one else for the pain
A multitude of mental scars
You did this to yourself
What did you think would happen
If you kept up that bad habit
It hurts to see you on your ass
But when I help I follow suit
So I no longer have your back
Its will power that you lack
Now you're a lost cause
And I just don't have the time
So take your pill
and swallow hard
It will never help
It will leave you scarred
I hate to see you hurt
but its just what you deserve
Remember that November night
Probably not since you were high
You thought it was all fun
but woke in a hospital room
So where are you now
Blaming me when you're down
Well I hope you see that I meant well
but you're the only one that can help
My Guardian
As the water pours
Over every road
And the torrents pull
We have lost control
With the lightning
Comes my guardian
And she wears the
Colors purest then
She saves the day
Pulls me by my arm
Takes my pain away
While I lie
Close to death I feel
My wounds numb to touch
The pain has faded now
I don't miss it much
She has saved the day
We have made it through
Took their pain away
And they lie by my side
As we peer around
We all feel the same
We are grateful yet
Feeling so much pain
Not much longer now
The sirens near
She looks around
And she disappears
As the medics arrive
Come to surround us
We are all alive
Thanks to her gentle touch
A Little Less
I know I was something less
Than what you bargained for
But I did try my best
And you still walked out that door
I don't want to feel
Like this forever
I'm just too scarred and scared
So I give up
I guess I wasn't able to
Keep you around for long
It was meant to be though
We will both be strong
I don't want to feel
Like this tomorrow
I'm just to scarred and scared
That I may be hollow
Where do we go from here
I just want to move forward
No more of this fear
Can't I just let it be over
I don't want to feel
Like I'm nothing
But I'm so scarred
and I'm so scared
Let me believe in something
I see it in your eyes,
I wasn't what you wanted,
Don't hide behind some lie,
When did you plan to tell me
You found something better,
were you waiting for a while
Would you write it in a letter,
Please just save your paper.
This is nothing I can't handle
But this time my hearts been torn
So don't bother with that candle
I'm not coming home anymore
I guess this is goodbye
Its time for me go
In need of my own time
To figure some things out
Was it all a waste
To help you to your feet
Because you look away
While I wait here by the street.
Its nothing I can't handle
I've been here once before
Felt the heat of battle
Another leaves me sore
This time its cutting close
But I know I'll make it through
My friend it just shows
I just couldn't ever trust you
How to Stand (more of a poem to myself)
There I sat
All alone
While everything
Passed by me
And I heard
Many voices
Offering me
Many choices
Still I wait
Let time pass
another day
May be my last
Now I hear
Many voices
Offer me
Many choices
I take my time
To do things right
When I fall it
Only hurts a while
Still I hear
All the Voices
Offering me
All those choices
Time to think
Decisions to make
Paths a plenty
No time for mistakes
I will hear
Many Voices
Always offer
Many Choices
Older and wiser
Learned from the fall
Because of the lessons
Forever stand tall
If You Only Knew
For as long as I have known
Shes been the one for me
The feelings I can't hide
But still she just doesn't see
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time
We have a way of finding
One another at awkward times
When I'm busy working
Or standing in a grocery line
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time
And right on cue it happens
I can feel the rising heat
If you only knew how I felt
It could have been something sweet
If all goes well she'll realize
That I've been here waiting
Just keeping myself occupied
For the day that she is ready
Because...
When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love your voice
Your gorgeous eyes
Ill keep you close
Until the end of time
While You Were Sleeping
I watched you as you drifted off
And floated in these awful thoughts
I knew you had another place
And false was the love you gave
I reflected and pondered what to do
The thought of up and leaving you
Clear as day; I knew for sure
That I just had to leave you here
While you were sleeping
Memories creeping
Haunting me to choose
While you were sleeping
I just kept thinking
Either way I go I'm going to lose
Someone hidden under all that hair
Deceptive plans to keep me there
I found a clue and I caught on
Such shame that it took so long
So standing with my things in hand
One more glance at what I had
I know now that none of this was mine
Because of what you chose to hide
A Pill a Day
There is no point to blame
Every one else for the pain
A multitude of mental scars
You did this to yourself
What did you think would happen
If you kept up that bad habit
It hurts to see you on your ass
But when I help I follow suit
So I no longer have your back
Its will power that you lack
Now you're a lost cause
And I just don't have the time
So take your pill
and swallow hard
It will never help
It will leave you scarred
I hate to see you hurt
but its just what you deserve
Remember that November night
Probably not since you were high
You thought it was all fun
but woke in a hospital room
So where are you now
Blaming me when you're down
Well I hope you see that I meant well
but you're the only one that can help
My Guardian
As the water pours
Over every road
And the torrents pull
We have lost control
With the lightning
Comes my guardian
And she wears the
Colors purest then
She saves the day
Pulls me by my arm
Takes my pain away
While I lie
Close to death I feel
My wounds numb to touch
The pain has faded now
I don't miss it much
She has saved the day
We have made it through
Took their pain away
And they lie by my side
As we peer around
We all feel the same
We are grateful yet
Feeling so much pain
Not much longer now
The sirens near
She looks around
And she disappears
As the medics arrive
Come to surround us
We are all alive
Thanks to her gentle touch
A Little Less
I know I was something less
Than what you bargained for
But I did try my best
And you still walked out that door
I don't want to feel
Like this forever
I'm just too scarred and scared
So I give up
I guess I wasn't able to
Keep you around for long
It was meant to be though
We will both be strong
I don't want to feel
Like this tomorrow
I'm just to scarred and scared
That I may be hollow
Where do we go from here
I just want to move forward
No more of this fear
Can't I just let it be over
I don't want to feel
Like I'm nothing
But I'm so scarred
and I'm so scared
Let me believe in something
Old Poetry pt. 4
Lost Inside and Out
Shipwrecked and broken
I lay alone and hopeless
nothing I could do will ever make this better
but it's worth every shot I have
Once again I stand up weakened
but I continue my path is hidden
I pray to God that this would be some dream
It's not possible, not for me
Never have I been one to model
I'm probably the worst one out there
I hope no one follows the course I made for myself
It's nothing I wish upon anyone to live through
I will just wander alone until I find
The Me that has been long forgotten
The Me that I wish i could stand face to face with
To find the meaning of Him in Me
This captain has lost his ship and crew
But more importantly lost his way
The confusion is mind-altering; enough to bring death upon
So much is at stake yet there's so little time
Coming Clean
I need to come clean
but i dont quite have the words
my tongue is numb and dumb
my teeth still chatter though they're clenched
Signs would be a great help
if i only knew how to use them
what i'm saying is this
i am scared light years beyond shitless
to speak of events that Might have happened
i dont want to ruin the ending
but i need to know
i just need to know what i want
what it is that i need
what the fuck is it going to take
trial and error could help
but i dont think its worth all the effort
to be honest i want to lie
that could create further problems later
what do i do where do i go
im just lost and i want some answers now
what is going on here
is it what i want or is it much less
the world may never know
but im pretty good at guessing games
i hope all ends well tonight
we are on different battle fields i guess
Lets just figure this out
Lets get this over with
If its too good to be true...
Defcon 5
Sanguine Temptations
To Build a Path
Standing above the world
Reflecting on all that I am
I have become something i have feared
Now to turn and repent
A choice worth a million years
But only two seconds to decide
To know what it is to do
And I will build the way
Until I can see the Light
I understand that I'm only one man
But I will make my wrongs right
But I'm one step away
From going over the edge
An end to all the misery accrued
The years have been unkind
but rolling with the punches
Has always been my specialty
And I Have my fight together now
(Together Now)
Too many nights have I
Stared through the darkness
Struggling to make sense of it all
But to no avail
I have had the Sour all too much
Now i want the Sweet
This is My Luck
This isn't about chance
and chances are you're going to lose
So i've decided to go all in
No holds barred in this round
Just hold your breath
as the dice are rolled across the felt
seven has never been my lucky number
as the loaded cubes strike singles
I hold my fucking breath
On my behalf I'd like to say
this is absolutely ridiculous to think
but thinking has never been my forte
these songs songs should make me feel alive
head first in any and every direction
no discussion no time to map it out
its called impulse
and i have plenty to go around
come to me first
apparently i robbed a bank
what happens in Vegas stays here
the sirens mean nothing to me
because you know what
IM ALL IN
The Takeover
Shipwrecked and broken
I lay alone and hopeless
nothing I could do will ever make this better
but it's worth every shot I have
Once again I stand up weakened
but I continue my path is hidden
I pray to God that this would be some dream
It's not possible, not for me
Never have I been one to model
I'm probably the worst one out there
I hope no one follows the course I made for myself
It's nothing I wish upon anyone to live through
I will just wander alone until I find
The Me that has been long forgotten
The Me that I wish i could stand face to face with
To find the meaning of Him in Me
This captain has lost his ship and crew
But more importantly lost his way
The confusion is mind-altering; enough to bring death upon
So much is at stake yet there's so little time
Coming Clean
I need to come clean
but i dont quite have the words
my tongue is numb and dumb
my teeth still chatter though they're clenched
Signs would be a great help
if i only knew how to use them
what i'm saying is this
i am scared light years beyond shitless
to speak of events that Might have happened
i dont want to ruin the ending
but i need to know
i just need to know what i want
what it is that i need
what the fuck is it going to take
trial and error could help
but i dont think its worth all the effort
to be honest i want to lie
that could create further problems later
what do i do where do i go
im just lost and i want some answers now
what is going on here
is it what i want or is it much less
the world may never know
but im pretty good at guessing games
i hope all ends well tonight
we are on different battle fields i guess
Lets just figure this out
Lets get this over with
If its too good to be true...
Here I lie awake and restless
contemplating the next step I should take
I am fearful for any outcome
whether good or bad uncertainty holds me
the perilous march that awaits
is nothing compared to the destiny i follow
Take these thoughts project them outward
Keep the uncertainty I'm not ready for
Walking a thin line is just a trivial act
Each tear shed holds more meaning than any problem
But then I muster all the courage
One deep breath and
Five steps forward
The burning sensation devours
as i am engulfed in fear once again
the only thing that hurts worse is the
disappointment that is so expected
through the haziness miles dread
its the piercing let down of a situation
If its too good to be true, it really fucking is
One day soon I'll figure how to play
as the odds are stacked i will overcome
no false prophecy or intuition
i am the created becoming the creator
of a destiny untraveled
i am gone to all but me and my own
No rabid tale will hold me forever
I promise this one thing
No Poison soaked words
cans steal my convictions
i will move onward as i did before
of all the things i have learned on my journey
only one stands out and clear to me
if its too good to be true, it really fucking is
contemplating the next step I should take
I am fearful for any outcome
whether good or bad uncertainty holds me
the perilous march that awaits
is nothing compared to the destiny i follow
Take these thoughts project them outward
Keep the uncertainty I'm not ready for
Walking a thin line is just a trivial act
Each tear shed holds more meaning than any problem
But then I muster all the courage
One deep breath and
Five steps forward
The burning sensation devours
as i am engulfed in fear once again
the only thing that hurts worse is the
disappointment that is so expected
through the haziness miles dread
its the piercing let down of a situation
If its too good to be true, it really fucking is
One day soon I'll figure how to play
as the odds are stacked i will overcome
no false prophecy or intuition
i am the created becoming the creator
of a destiny untraveled
i am gone to all but me and my own
No rabid tale will hold me forever
I promise this one thing
No Poison soaked words
cans steal my convictions
i will move onward as i did before
of all the things i have learned on my journey
only one stands out and clear to me
if its too good to be true, it really fucking is
Defcon 5
We will honor you
For the one thing you have given me
A state of mind unsurpassed
Unforgiving and Non-existant
But we thank you and Raise a toast
To the women who brought us back to life
To desire, to fornicate, to turn the other cheek
Yet still look when necessary
Incoherent whispers in the dark
With Paranoia sinking in swiftly
Turning heads to make a scene
But our eyes open and scream
We will honor you
For making me who I am
Molding me against the flame and steel
Love doesn't grow
From our hearts or souls
Its a response to hate
The Devil's curtain show
Once again thank you graciously
Now take a bow strike a chord
Something for the choir to scream in terror
For making me the man who you stand before
Don't make a promise
Don't speak of war
Jealousy may be overwhelming
But soon enough you'll know it all too well
Love is a privilege
Not a two dollar whore
For the one thing you have given me
A state of mind unsurpassed
Unforgiving and Non-existant
But we thank you and Raise a toast
To the women who brought us back to life
To desire, to fornicate, to turn the other cheek
Yet still look when necessary
Incoherent whispers in the dark
With Paranoia sinking in swiftly
Turning heads to make a scene
But our eyes open and scream
We will honor you
For making me who I am
Molding me against the flame and steel
Love doesn't grow
From our hearts or souls
Its a response to hate
The Devil's curtain show
Once again thank you graciously
Now take a bow strike a chord
Something for the choir to scream in terror
For making me the man who you stand before
Don't make a promise
Don't speak of war
Jealousy may be overwhelming
But soon enough you'll know it all too well
Love is a privilege
Not a two dollar whore
Sanguine Temptations
There is a deeper red that clouds my eyes
The bloodshots and lacerations add character
the bloodlust builds up within much deeper
bottled up partition of my most hateful thoughts
Five seconds left until I explode
Four breaths of air to fill your lungs
Three words could have prevented all this
Two blinks of an eye is all it will take
One chance last chance to say goodbye
This is the calm before the storm
I have been place in a position to unleash
While the world floats in slow motion
My thoughts increase in number and complexity
I don't question my ability but my morality
Am I hurting for the right reasons
Is my pain equivalent to that I radiate
NO - THE ANSWER ALWAYS - NO
As I remain unsheathed I have stored my ammunition
the unveiling of an atom bomb is so much closer than before
A shorter fuse means less time to collect composure
Good luck in the future your life counts on it.
The bloodshots and lacerations add character
the bloodlust builds up within much deeper
bottled up partition of my most hateful thoughts
Five seconds left until I explode
Four breaths of air to fill your lungs
Three words could have prevented all this
Two blinks of an eye is all it will take
One chance last chance to say goodbye
This is the calm before the storm
I have been place in a position to unleash
While the world floats in slow motion
My thoughts increase in number and complexity
I don't question my ability but my morality
Am I hurting for the right reasons
Is my pain equivalent to that I radiate
NO - THE ANSWER ALWAYS - NO
As I remain unsheathed I have stored my ammunition
the unveiling of an atom bomb is so much closer than before
A shorter fuse means less time to collect composure
Good luck in the future your life counts on it.
To Build a Path
Standing above the world
Reflecting on all that I am
I have become something i have feared
Now to turn and repent
A choice worth a million years
But only two seconds to decide
To know what it is to do
And I will build the way
Until I can see the Light
I understand that I'm only one man
But I will make my wrongs right
But I'm one step away
From going over the edge
An end to all the misery accrued
The years have been unkind
but rolling with the punches
Has always been my specialty
And I Have my fight together now
(Together Now)
Too many nights have I
Stared through the darkness
Struggling to make sense of it all
But to no avail
I have had the Sour all too much
Now i want the Sweet
This is My Luck
This isn't about chance
and chances are you're going to lose
So i've decided to go all in
No holds barred in this round
Just hold your breath
as the dice are rolled across the felt
seven has never been my lucky number
as the loaded cubes strike singles
I hold my fucking breath
On my behalf I'd like to say
this is absolutely ridiculous to think
but thinking has never been my forte
these songs songs should make me feel alive
head first in any and every direction
no discussion no time to map it out
its called impulse
and i have plenty to go around
come to me first
apparently i robbed a bank
what happens in Vegas stays here
the sirens mean nothing to me
because you know what
IM ALL IN
The Takeover
i have decided to tune in
these voices distorted but clearing
what once was a concience is no more
Im running away quickly...I need to end this war
The voices i hear repeating constantly
the shouting of some dueling gods
resounding but only to me
and i wait for it all to go away
nothing makes sense just words
i chant to angels as i pray
thundering through my thoughts
thier whispers are like gunshots
smells of wax candles left burning
and still I'm losing this aging battle
I want my life to go back to normal
twisting memories to match their cause
i will resist until i've won or even lost
complete control what i once had here
my eyes don't even shed my own tears
these eyes will bleed forever
the takeover has begun without me
nothing that i was will i ever be again
my body is a vessel for their dirty work
other worldly feelings make me smirk
at the chance of me being great
these voices distorted but clearing
what once was a concience is no more
Im running away quickly...I need to end this war
The voices i hear repeating constantly
the shouting of some dueling gods
resounding but only to me
and i wait for it all to go away
nothing makes sense just words
i chant to angels as i pray
thundering through my thoughts
thier whispers are like gunshots
smells of wax candles left burning
and still I'm losing this aging battle
I want my life to go back to normal
twisting memories to match their cause
i will resist until i've won or even lost
complete control what i once had here
my eyes don't even shed my own tears
these eyes will bleed forever
the takeover has begun without me
nothing that i was will i ever be again
my body is a vessel for their dirty work
other worldly feelings make me smirk
at the chance of me being great
Circuitry
Here is another road block
A milestone still unturned
I've never been a good person
I'll be amazed if I can change
From larva to butterfly
To shed this old skin
Much easier said than done
But time to bite the bullet
Put my thoughts to work
Rerwire my everything
Like a jumble of circuitry
Exposing down to barebones
Crack the code and recover
All the precious data stored
Start me over and over again
Not even the elitists are able
Make the neccessary upgrades
Anything lost will resurface
A short circuit is a minor setback
All the corruption is replaced
A viral strand of life is rising
One spread with ease through
Entirely altering characters
Documentation is but a buffer
Rules are going to be broken
A web of fallacy to transmit
All in all it will crumble again
To be rebuilt and destroyed
A vicious circle that is constant
One that will never cease
Chorus:
With every piece of me
To my inner circuitry
I am destined to prevail
In my mind I cannot fail
It means I will sacrifice
Everything down to my life
Backing up all that I am
To a shell of me refreshed
I will not suffer tragically
To be reborn mechanically
Old Poetry pt. 3
Wallflower
I have no excuses left
There's no reason not to go
I kept stalling but now
Gotta get the FUCK UP!
Chorus 1:
Needles from the numbness
Scratching, no, tearing through me
Amazing graces can't save everyone
Especially not me I'm long overdue
Standing on my own again
Crutches aren't going to help
And stumbling isn't an option
Sobriety is so far and lost
So pass me a fucking drink
I'll take any amount of alcohol
Just to get me out of this seat
To get my fill of the nightlife
The lights and the sounds
Blow this liquor soaked mind
Confident as ever i prowl
And you know you want it
You cant get enough
I'm open to the public
So you better come now
Before supply runs out
Chorus 2:
Im so gone but i love it
From hazy, no, drunken choices
Ive had my fill so now im going home
To wipe the slate and do it all tomorrow
A Dream Adrift
There comes a time
When every thing stops making sense
No reason why
But you can't stop it when it happens
Take a minute to see
That things might not always be the same but
Just keep on going
never stop moving
It might feel strange
living day by day
One chance at life
There is no second try
We make mistakes
but we learn everyday
Once in a while
Expect all the unexpected
It will surprise you
To see your dreams come alive
If you feel your heart racing
Don't be afraid everything will work out
Just keep on going
never stop moving
It might feel strange
living day by day
One chance at life
There is no second try
We make mistakes
but we learn everyday
Reality
Can someone please explain to me
The separation of dreams and reality
I don't want to sleep ever again
Cause I cant tell the difference when
All that's around me gets lost in translation
Am I the only one who finds
That reality is much more enticing
Sleepless nights are when I'm alive
The midnight is my time to shine
Perfect Day for a Crime Scene
The smell of the air is choking me out
Noxious odors of death are surrounding
No one else notices so they go about
Their own business and its driving me
Out of my mind. I'm scared without a doubt
From catching my reflection I am revolting
I catch a look at myself and then shout
A body so torn should not be standing
I just can't explain
what I'm feeling
but it doesn't matter
cause no ones listening
I have no excuses left
There's no reason not to go
I kept stalling but now
Gotta get the FUCK UP!
Chorus 1:
Needles from the numbness
Scratching, no, tearing through me
Amazing graces can't save everyone
Especially not me I'm long overdue
Standing on my own again
Crutches aren't going to help
And stumbling isn't an option
Sobriety is so far and lost
So pass me a fucking drink
I'll take any amount of alcohol
Just to get me out of this seat
To get my fill of the nightlife
The lights and the sounds
Blow this liquor soaked mind
Confident as ever i prowl
And you know you want it
You cant get enough
I'm open to the public
So you better come now
Before supply runs out
Chorus 2:
Im so gone but i love it
From hazy, no, drunken choices
Ive had my fill so now im going home
To wipe the slate and do it all tomorrow
A Dream Adrift
There comes a time
When every thing stops making sense
No reason why
But you can't stop it when it happens
Take a minute to see
That things might not always be the same but
Just keep on going
never stop moving
It might feel strange
living day by day
One chance at life
There is no second try
We make mistakes
but we learn everyday
Once in a while
Expect all the unexpected
It will surprise you
To see your dreams come alive
If you feel your heart racing
Don't be afraid everything will work out
Just keep on going
never stop moving
It might feel strange
living day by day
One chance at life
There is no second try
We make mistakes
but we learn everyday
Reality
Can someone please explain to me
The separation of dreams and reality
I don't want to sleep ever again
Cause I cant tell the difference when
All that's around me gets lost in translation
Am I the only one who finds
That reality is much more enticing
Sleepless nights are when I'm alive
The midnight is my time to shine
Perfect Day for a Crime Scene
The smell of the air is choking me out
Noxious odors of death are surrounding
No one else notices so they go about
Their own business and its driving me
Out of my mind. I'm scared without a doubt
From catching my reflection I am revolting
I catch a look at myself and then shout
A body so torn should not be standing
I just can't explain
what I'm feeling
but it doesn't matter
cause no ones listening
Old Poetry pt. 2
Juggernaut
By Matt and Johnny Flores
In the end it gets real nasty
All the fuzz they just can't have me
The quicksand keeps pulling quicker
While everyone gets sicker and sicker
Where is my heaven or even hell
In the end i know that all went well
When suicide runs through these veins
I only need think of you to bring more pain
Simon has always said
Outer-space is in my head
Not in my room but on this spoon
Delusions of a doctors swoon.
My medication to calm the addiction.
None of this is a work of fiction
Maybe fairytails and dead end dreams
probably sleeping but I still scream
Thoughts only cause a twitch
For nothing is impossible
Cause I'm the juggernaut bitch
And I'm fucking unstoppable
I dropped the high like a hot potato
I'm not mainstream fuck the radio
The outfit I don soon is retired
Back to basics Im never fired
Sitting in this class I rise anew
I will be back but not too soon
The aches the pains I suffered here
Won't be remembered after a year.
The Road less traveled
Im not so sure
I know the way back home
Its been far too long
And all the roads look the same
every path i take
leads me right back to here
The back roads wind
Twisting in every direction
I miss the old home
A place I used to know
Where I once was happy
Where the world had no hold
I slept the entire way
Enjoying what freedom has
No way to backtrack
Unknowingly losing ground
The roads washed
Rain soaked and wind swept
Lost and all alone
The empty road and i bond
Shooting Spree
The glamour, the glare
Glittering flicker to the eyes
Not a dull moment passes
The spotlight is finally mine
She thinks to herself
As the sea of lightning
Waves that make her shiver
A glimpse of some life form
Beyond the 21flash salute
Booming sound of shutters
Twitching all around her face
Capture her emotionless smile
But she can't hide her grace
Her fifteen minutes of fame
Occupied pleasing the crowd
Little does she know that
Soon it will all be laid to rest
But it end as fast as it begins
Seduction at every opportunity
Both men and women grow red with envy
This is her life day out and day in
A small price to pay for pornographic sin
She does everything to earn her front page spread
Catching up when she's laying, sweating, naked
Its all over with the man and his loaded gun
For his fifteen minutes have just begun
Drowning in the flood of white
So much it stings her eyes
Her fifteen minutes come and gone
The shots all end the film is done
Captivation strangled audience
Performers take their final bows
Their bodies cast under the spotlight
Although the show is at its end
Her fifteen minutes will come again
FrankensTina
Why did you leave on such short notice
I want to breathe the air to fill your pulse
Remarkably the colors never left your skin
But all I see is a monster and the beauty within
And I will drain of me
Everything that we need
My concern for safety
Is undermined by curiosity
To bring the light back into your eyes
God bless my fight your grace is ever needed
Renew your sight watch me mending arteries
Working every night sleepless a struggle worth completion
You've been rewired right to perfection
There is no higher, no more alive than you
Bring on a choir the gift of life is granted
I so admire the newborn just waking
Strike One
He is the symbol
Once a mark
Something for all men
The artist then took
From his creation
Flesh for another
They lived harmonious
All the while
The artist observant
Of their insubordination
Punish them eternally
Now we all suffer
Creation must crumble
To provide a path for the future
If not through the creator
Then destroyed by our own
The Greatest Gloom
Take me by the hand you said,
But right onto the bed you led,
I'm such a sucker for your pretty face,
And knowing I'm not the first in this place,
Cause I've seen...
All that you have shown to me
And we...
Know that you never mean
Anything...
Good that you've ever said
So I pray...
Your tainted smile infects my brain,
So much my body can't contain,
I see it now I've been an idiot,
You got yours, all else is meaningless,
Cause I've seen...
All that you have shown to me
And we...
Know that you never mean
Anything...
Good that you've ever said
So I pray...
No time for your tricks
They all made me sick
Too much to even stomach
Just knowing what I've done here
Never thought of consequence
Your hurting to it all makes sense
But now is the time
To kill this heart of mine
And I pray...
It all will end so silently
But I know...
Perfection's not the life for me
Yesterday...
Has always kept me more alive
So I sing...
Kick Start This Dying Heart
On the verge of release,
Exergony pushes yield little,
Combustion is but a memory,
A fading pulse has taken me,
Defibrillators are a warm welcome,
Searing pain burns these nerves numb,
Bringing a sliver of day to sight,
Out of body so far from the light,
That bastard toying with un-dead emotions,
A kid with an ant-farm and a magnifying lens,
Burning the likes of his entire batch,
Through the glare a sneer i can catch,
Laughing at our misery and pain,
Only to leave us alive to feel again,
A jolt brings a vision unclear but seen,
Coming nearer from that distant dream,
Alive unwell, a memory of death lingers,
Still clenching at my throat with cold fingers,
Gripping and flexing with all its will,
I stand back up refusing to die or be killed,
Fighting against His angry hand,
You thought you had be but you can't,
I control the beat in my throbbing chest,
You might say left but i will turn west,
I have returned with my life renewed,
I once was dead. I've payed my dues.
The King and His Throne
Its time to take your place in the court
The king has returned but without his bride
Trumpets blast announcing the arrival
If you were wise you'd stay as far as possible
No time for rejoice
Go Now! You have no choice
Now draw your swords
For this time it's war
Like a game of hearts
The Bitch hunt is ours
I am the King of Fuck-Ups
and the Queen left with her crown
The burning i have found is pleasant
You came to smoke me out of my home
I fuck with fire but it doesnt fuck with me
My precious your attempts are laughable
There is something buried along with my heart
My capacity to fully give a shit about anything
Flames kiss at my lips and adore my deep eyes
An absence of concience helps me carry on
I am the King and my reign is far from over
You're yet to see the climax of my ruling
You're yet to feel my embrace on my world
My grip on all that surrounds me including you
Ready the gallows
The crime is high treason
Your sentence is Death
This crowd will waltz
With the snap of your neck
Your lovely dance in midair
Quite breath taking in fact
No more air enters your lungs
Mind Party!
The insatiable have eaten through me
All that remains is my vision intact
And the frail pulsing buried deeply
Theres not much time to react.
My brain will squirm with pleasure
As it meets the cannon at my fingers
Introducing his smoke stenched cousin
All will mingle Oh, so perfectly now.
So as I detonate,
I will spill all my thoughts,
All over the ceiling,
All over everything,
As my mind is spreading thin,
Nothing to keep it in,
My heart will stop its pounding,
But that really means nothing,
The dark will cloud my eyes,
Pouring from where it hides,
And I will try to watch it all,
While the bullet follows its call,
And I hope you hear about me on the news
Because I will still be watching out for you
Know that nothing golden will ever stay
But also my torment will never fade.
The chills will creep on under and inside
Tingling until you pull off your hide
A fleshless monstrosity that you have shown
Is the same one I have always known.
Whats Wrong Here
the filth has ruled us
far to long, to say the least
taking its toll on everything
while the workers carry onward
pushing through the trenches
we live in this crime rampant
hole of a country we call home
together we accomplish
against all odds we struggle
underdog is a laughable term
wake the dormant, bring the justice
the plague among which
we have lived, grips ever firmly
although against our vision
invisibly existing but ever present
knowing full well of its potential
cowering because we know too little
of a way to end the reign of terror
let us rise to the occasion
dress in our sunday best
bring the beast down to its knees
united we can end the torment
tear out the heart so we can
give back the blood it stole
to free ourselves; rebuild our lives
Lost Innocents
I used to be so innocent
whats happening to me
on looking back i realize
there was too much happening
i couldn't spot it in time
i just couldn't stop it
the wheels set in motion
as shrouds of ice cold
radiate from those pillars
the ones that kept me
from falling years before
now i glance and see
reflections like me still
leaning on those monuments
As if no amount of cold
can chill their proud bones
now what was once mine forfeited
left for scavengers pecking away
what i could no longer touch
Reaching for me to join their sect
warming the ground they draw me
to them i become a beam
to offer more support
i will nurture them with
all the knowledge i retain
from this devastating journey
from innocence to my final rest
all that i know will be theirs
to share as the youngest comes
innocent as i once had been
now i stand watch and support
Ballad for a Wake-Up Call
Waking up to emptiness
I will find my way to serve
Bearing down with my fists
Has always been my formula
Bring down these walls
To see the light that the World has
Offering to everything on its face
The Plea of Faith
The people will tremble before him
As he turns water crimson
Your cannibal lips will drink from the Rivers
The heavens will weep
For man have become destroyers
Fires will spread through-out
Turning fields into wasteland
His vengeance found in his offering
Not even death will hold him
Return to walk among the man who defied him
A miraculous recovery or an act of magic
Its up to you to decide.
Our Flood
And i will sleep for days as i have promised you
When i found you on the sand so beautiful but breathless
I walked with you in my arms and i never let go
Until we found our way home
I won't sleep until the waters flood the ground we walk on
I can't stand alone, as the waters pull us apart
you float too far for me to reach you
I will sleep through the light and cover my eyes
just as we did all those times before you left
Under the sheets we stared into the other
our eyes utter the single word "forever"
I won't sleep until the waters flood the ground we walk on
I can't stand alone, as the waters pull us apart
You float too far for me to reach you
Let the flood come as I sleep at night while i lie in bed
I pray to the current let it pull me under swiftly
So that i can be with you once again nothing could be greater
For that one day that i see you
I will be with you as the waters flood the ground
We walk with the deluge uninterrupted by the land
The storm has come and i go with it
As the current pulls relentlessly at every limb
And gasp for air I inhale this filling liquid
Then there you are right in front of me kissing my last breath away
As the flood i waited for came i sacrificed my self to the waters rising.
By Matt and Johnny Flores
In the end it gets real nasty
All the fuzz they just can't have me
The quicksand keeps pulling quicker
While everyone gets sicker and sicker
Where is my heaven or even hell
In the end i know that all went well
When suicide runs through these veins
I only need think of you to bring more pain
Simon has always said
Outer-space is in my head
Not in my room but on this spoon
Delusions of a doctors swoon.
My medication to calm the addiction.
None of this is a work of fiction
Maybe fairytails and dead end dreams
probably sleeping but I still scream
Thoughts only cause a twitch
For nothing is impossible
Cause I'm the juggernaut bitch
And I'm fucking unstoppable
I dropped the high like a hot potato
I'm not mainstream fuck the radio
The outfit I don soon is retired
Back to basics Im never fired
Sitting in this class I rise anew
I will be back but not too soon
The aches the pains I suffered here
Won't be remembered after a year.
The Road less traveled
Im not so sure
I know the way back home
Its been far too long
And all the roads look the same
every path i take
leads me right back to here
The back roads wind
Twisting in every direction
I miss the old home
A place I used to know
Where I once was happy
Where the world had no hold
I slept the entire way
Enjoying what freedom has
No way to backtrack
Unknowingly losing ground
The roads washed
Rain soaked and wind swept
Lost and all alone
The empty road and i bond
Shooting Spree
The glamour, the glare
Glittering flicker to the eyes
Not a dull moment passes
The spotlight is finally mine
She thinks to herself
As the sea of lightning
Waves that make her shiver
A glimpse of some life form
Beyond the 21flash salute
Booming sound of shutters
Twitching all around her face
Capture her emotionless smile
But she can't hide her grace
Her fifteen minutes of fame
Occupied pleasing the crowd
Little does she know that
Soon it will all be laid to rest
But it end as fast as it begins
Seduction at every opportunity
Both men and women grow red with envy
This is her life day out and day in
A small price to pay for pornographic sin
She does everything to earn her front page spread
Catching up when she's laying, sweating, naked
Its all over with the man and his loaded gun
For his fifteen minutes have just begun
Drowning in the flood of white
So much it stings her eyes
Her fifteen minutes come and gone
The shots all end the film is done
Captivation strangled audience
Performers take their final bows
Their bodies cast under the spotlight
Although the show is at its end
Her fifteen minutes will come again
FrankensTina
Why did you leave on such short notice
I want to breathe the air to fill your pulse
Remarkably the colors never left your skin
But all I see is a monster and the beauty within
And I will drain of me
Everything that we need
My concern for safety
Is undermined by curiosity
To bring the light back into your eyes
God bless my fight your grace is ever needed
Renew your sight watch me mending arteries
Working every night sleepless a struggle worth completion
You've been rewired right to perfection
There is no higher, no more alive than you
Bring on a choir the gift of life is granted
I so admire the newborn just waking
Strike One
He is the symbol
Once a mark
Something for all men
The artist then took
From his creation
Flesh for another
They lived harmonious
All the while
The artist observant
Of their insubordination
Punish them eternally
Now we all suffer
Creation must crumble
To provide a path for the future
If not through the creator
Then destroyed by our own
The Greatest Gloom
Take me by the hand you said,
But right onto the bed you led,
I'm such a sucker for your pretty face,
And knowing I'm not the first in this place,
Cause I've seen...
All that you have shown to me
And we...
Know that you never mean
Anything...
Good that you've ever said
So I pray...
Your tainted smile infects my brain,
So much my body can't contain,
I see it now I've been an idiot,
You got yours, all else is meaningless,
Cause I've seen...
All that you have shown to me
And we...
Know that you never mean
Anything...
Good that you've ever said
So I pray...
No time for your tricks
They all made me sick
Too much to even stomach
Just knowing what I've done here
Never thought of consequence
Your hurting to it all makes sense
But now is the time
To kill this heart of mine
And I pray...
It all will end so silently
But I know...
Perfection's not the life for me
Yesterday...
Has always kept me more alive
So I sing...
Kick Start This Dying Heart
On the verge of release,
Exergony pushes yield little,
Combustion is but a memory,
A fading pulse has taken me,
Defibrillators are a warm welcome,
Searing pain burns these nerves numb,
Bringing a sliver of day to sight,
Out of body so far from the light,
That bastard toying with un-dead emotions,
A kid with an ant-farm and a magnifying lens,
Burning the likes of his entire batch,
Through the glare a sneer i can catch,
Laughing at our misery and pain,
Only to leave us alive to feel again,
A jolt brings a vision unclear but seen,
Coming nearer from that distant dream,
Alive unwell, a memory of death lingers,
Still clenching at my throat with cold fingers,
Gripping and flexing with all its will,
I stand back up refusing to die or be killed,
Fighting against His angry hand,
You thought you had be but you can't,
I control the beat in my throbbing chest,
You might say left but i will turn west,
I have returned with my life renewed,
I once was dead. I've payed my dues.
The King and His Throne
Its time to take your place in the court
The king has returned but without his bride
Trumpets blast announcing the arrival
If you were wise you'd stay as far as possible
No time for rejoice
Go Now! You have no choice
Now draw your swords
For this time it's war
Like a game of hearts
The Bitch hunt is ours
I am the King of Fuck-Ups
and the Queen left with her crown
The burning i have found is pleasant
You came to smoke me out of my home
I fuck with fire but it doesnt fuck with me
My precious your attempts are laughable
There is something buried along with my heart
My capacity to fully give a shit about anything
Flames kiss at my lips and adore my deep eyes
An absence of concience helps me carry on
I am the King and my reign is far from over
You're yet to see the climax of my ruling
You're yet to feel my embrace on my world
My grip on all that surrounds me including you
Ready the gallows
The crime is high treason
Your sentence is Death
This crowd will waltz
With the snap of your neck
Your lovely dance in midair
Quite breath taking in fact
No more air enters your lungs
Mind Party!
The insatiable have eaten through me
All that remains is my vision intact
And the frail pulsing buried deeply
Theres not much time to react.
My brain will squirm with pleasure
As it meets the cannon at my fingers
Introducing his smoke stenched cousin
All will mingle Oh, so perfectly now.
So as I detonate,
I will spill all my thoughts,
All over the ceiling,
All over everything,
As my mind is spreading thin,
Nothing to keep it in,
My heart will stop its pounding,
But that really means nothing,
The dark will cloud my eyes,
Pouring from where it hides,
And I will try to watch it all,
While the bullet follows its call,
And I hope you hear about me on the news
Because I will still be watching out for you
Know that nothing golden will ever stay
But also my torment will never fade.
The chills will creep on under and inside
Tingling until you pull off your hide
A fleshless monstrosity that you have shown
Is the same one I have always known.
Whats Wrong Here
the filth has ruled us
far to long, to say the least
taking its toll on everything
while the workers carry onward
pushing through the trenches
we live in this crime rampant
hole of a country we call home
together we accomplish
against all odds we struggle
underdog is a laughable term
wake the dormant, bring the justice
the plague among which
we have lived, grips ever firmly
although against our vision
invisibly existing but ever present
knowing full well of its potential
cowering because we know too little
of a way to end the reign of terror
let us rise to the occasion
dress in our sunday best
bring the beast down to its knees
united we can end the torment
tear out the heart so we can
give back the blood it stole
to free ourselves; rebuild our lives
Lost Innocents
I used to be so innocent
whats happening to me
on looking back i realize
there was too much happening
i couldn't spot it in time
i just couldn't stop it
the wheels set in motion
as shrouds of ice cold
radiate from those pillars
the ones that kept me
from falling years before
now i glance and see
reflections like me still
leaning on those monuments
As if no amount of cold
can chill their proud bones
now what was once mine forfeited
left for scavengers pecking away
what i could no longer touch
Reaching for me to join their sect
warming the ground they draw me
to them i become a beam
to offer more support
i will nurture them with
all the knowledge i retain
from this devastating journey
from innocence to my final rest
all that i know will be theirs
to share as the youngest comes
innocent as i once had been
now i stand watch and support
Ballad for a Wake-Up Call
Waking up to emptiness
I will find my way to serve
Bearing down with my fists
Has always been my formula
Bring down these walls
To see the light that the World has
Offering to everything on its face
The Plea of Faith
The people will tremble before him
As he turns water crimson
Your cannibal lips will drink from the Rivers
The heavens will weep
For man have become destroyers
Fires will spread through-out
Turning fields into wasteland
His vengeance found in his offering
Not even death will hold him
Return to walk among the man who defied him
A miraculous recovery or an act of magic
Its up to you to decide.
Our Flood
And i will sleep for days as i have promised you
When i found you on the sand so beautiful but breathless
I walked with you in my arms and i never let go
Until we found our way home
I won't sleep until the waters flood the ground we walk on
I can't stand alone, as the waters pull us apart
you float too far for me to reach you
I will sleep through the light and cover my eyes
just as we did all those times before you left
Under the sheets we stared into the other
our eyes utter the single word "forever"
I won't sleep until the waters flood the ground we walk on
I can't stand alone, as the waters pull us apart
You float too far for me to reach you
Let the flood come as I sleep at night while i lie in bed
I pray to the current let it pull me under swiftly
So that i can be with you once again nothing could be greater
For that one day that i see you
I will be with you as the waters flood the ground
We walk with the deluge uninterrupted by the land
The storm has come and i go with it
As the current pulls relentlessly at every limb
And gasp for air I inhale this filling liquid
Then there you are right in front of me kissing my last breath away
As the flood i waited for came i sacrificed my self to the waters rising.
Old Poetry pt. 1
Get It Started!!
Lets drink it up have a good time
Just take the shot and bite the lime
Fire it up there's more than a dime
To sit this out should be a crime
We'll meet half way and talk a while
Those sparkling eyes and dazzling smile
To that amazing body so nubile
I have to have you there's no denial
Chorus 1:
Take a drink, I'll have one too
There is nothing wrong with me or you
Your friends are fine they're with my crew
I'm ready and you know its true
We're running out of time you see
I'll hold your hand just follow me
Lets find that place to set you free
I promise I'll start gently
Use my hand to block my eyes
Its much too soon for the sunrise
I'm still up and going from last night
And I wont stop until I'm satisfied
Chorus 2:
Im thrilled but i never let it show
I've lost control but dont take it slow
This girls passed out who turn to go
Your up bro! Thats the way we roll
Another One
I have a question that needs answering
because my mind fills up and its haunting me
I cant think straight and I have to lean
Won't some one just help me please
because I am ready to scream
What am i supposed to do
With these memories
I am tormented to my wits end
I am burned and I'm hurting
and no one can save me from me
i have the razor in plain sight
the splatters contrast on the white
of the bathroom sink
im having a bad dream
this cant be happening
the prodigal son i am
I have fled my fathers land
I've fallen seen the light
so please give me back my life
just let me make it right
so what am i to do with
all the thoughts of you
I'm through with
cut them out its worth the wait
so i wont have to feel the pain
WTF
the heart that beats
and heard for miles
through hollow chest
and emptiness
sacrifice is there is
nothing to hold onto
painful memories
only lacerate
the membrane skin
that holds it all in
to push through
to persevere
im wearing thin
and no one cares
no holding back
just making plans
to make things right
i will not fail
no matter how
no matter when
to give it my last
my blood and sweat
these tired hands
bruised and bleeding
to push through
to persevere
im wearing thin
and no one cares
i've lost it all
i have no more
just take my life
lets make a deal
im broken now
ineffectual you see
but no one could
nor hear me speak
just dig a trench
for me to sleep
Lets drink it up have a good time
Just take the shot and bite the lime
Fire it up there's more than a dime
To sit this out should be a crime
We'll meet half way and talk a while
Those sparkling eyes and dazzling smile
To that amazing body so nubile
I have to have you there's no denial
Chorus 1:
Take a drink, I'll have one too
There is nothing wrong with me or you
Your friends are fine they're with my crew
I'm ready and you know its true
We're running out of time you see
I'll hold your hand just follow me
Lets find that place to set you free
I promise I'll start gently
Use my hand to block my eyes
Its much too soon for the sunrise
I'm still up and going from last night
And I wont stop until I'm satisfied
Chorus 2:
Im thrilled but i never let it show
I've lost control but dont take it slow
This girls passed out who turn to go
Your up bro! Thats the way we roll
Another One
I have a question that needs answering
because my mind fills up and its haunting me
I cant think straight and I have to lean
Won't some one just help me please
because I am ready to scream
What am i supposed to do
With these memories
I am tormented to my wits end
I am burned and I'm hurting
and no one can save me from me
i have the razor in plain sight
the splatters contrast on the white
of the bathroom sink
im having a bad dream
this cant be happening
the prodigal son i am
I have fled my fathers land
I've fallen seen the light
so please give me back my life
just let me make it right
so what am i to do with
all the thoughts of you
I'm through with
cut them out its worth the wait
so i wont have to feel the pain
WTF
the heart that beats
and heard for miles
through hollow chest
and emptiness
sacrifice is there is
nothing to hold onto
painful memories
only lacerate
the membrane skin
that holds it all in
to push through
to persevere
im wearing thin
and no one cares
no holding back
just making plans
to make things right
i will not fail
no matter how
no matter when
to give it my last
my blood and sweat
these tired hands
bruised and bleeding
to push through
to persevere
im wearing thin
and no one cares
i've lost it all
i have no more
just take my life
lets make a deal
im broken now
ineffectual you see
but no one could
nor hear me speak
just dig a trench
for me to sleep
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