Old Poetry pt. 5

A Farewell of Sorts
I see it in your eyes,
I wasn't what you wanted,
Don't hide behind some lie,
When did you plan to tell me
You found something better,
were you waiting for a while
Would you write it in a letter,
Please just save your paper.

This is nothing I can't handle
But this time my hearts been torn
So don't bother with that candle
I'm not coming home anymore

I guess this is goodbye
Its time for me go
In need of my own time
To figure some things out
Was it all a waste
To help you to your feet
Because you look away
While I wait here by the street.

Its nothing I can't handle
I've been here once before
Felt the heat of battle
Another leaves me sore

This time its cutting close
But I know I'll make it through
My friend it just shows
I just couldn't ever trust you


How to Stand (more of a poem to myself)

There I sat
All alone
While everything
Passed by me

And I heard
Many voices
Offering me
Many choices

Still I wait
Let time pass
another day
May be my last

Now I hear
Many voices
Offer me
Many choices

I take my time
To do things right
When I fall it
Only hurts a while

Still I hear
All the Voices
Offering me
All those choices

Time to think
Decisions to make
Paths a plenty
No time for mistakes

I will hear
Many Voices
Always offer
Many Choices

Older and wiser
Learned from the fall
Because of the lessons
Forever stand tall



If You Only Knew

For as long as I have known
Shes been the one for me
The feelings I can't hide
But still she just doesn't see

When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time

We have a way of finding
One another at awkward times
When I'm busy working
Or standing in a grocery line

When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love her voice
Her gorgeous eyes
I'll keep her close
Until the end of time


And right on cue it happens
I can feel the rising heat
If you only knew how I felt
It could have been something sweet

If all goes well she'll realize
That I've been here waiting
Just keeping myself occupied
For the day that she is ready

Because...

When we talk
We both smile
And we call
Every once in a while
I love your voice
Your gorgeous eyes
Ill keep you close
Until the end of time


While You Were Sleeping

I watched you as you drifted off
And floated in these awful thoughts
I knew you had another place
And false was the love you gave

I reflected and pondered what to do
The thought of up and leaving you
Clear as day; I knew for sure
That I just had to leave you here

While you were sleeping
Memories creeping
Haunting me to choose
While you were sleeping
I just kept thinking
Either way I go I'm going to lose

Someone hidden under all that hair
Deceptive plans to keep me there
I found a clue and I caught on
Such shame that it took so long

So standing with my things in hand
One more glance at what I had
I know now that none of this was mine
Because of what you chose to hide


A Pill a Day

There is no point to blame
Every one else for the pain
A multitude of mental scars
You did this to yourself

What did you think would happen
If you kept up that bad habit
It hurts to see you on your ass
But when I help I follow suit

So I no longer have your back
Its will power that you lack
Now you're a lost cause
And I just don't have the time

So take your pill
and swallow hard
It will never help
It will leave you scarred
I hate to see you hurt
but its just what you deserve

Remember that November night
Probably not since you were high
You thought it was all fun
but woke in a hospital room

So where are you now
Blaming me when you're down
Well I hope you see that I meant well
but you're the only one that can help


My Guardian

As the water pours
Over every road
And the torrents pull
We have lost control


With the lightning
Comes my guardian
And she wears the
Colors purest then


She saves the day
Pulls me by my arm
Takes my pain away
While I lie


Close to death I feel
My wounds numb to touch
The pain has faded now
I don't miss it much


She has saved the day
We have made it through
Took their pain away
And they lie by my side


As we peer around
We all feel the same
We are grateful yet
Feeling so much pain

Not much longer now
The sirens near
She looks around
And she disappears

As the medics arrive
Come to surround us
We are all alive
Thanks to her gentle touch


A Little Less

I know I was something less
Than what you bargained for
But I did try my best
And you still walked out that door

I don't want to feel
Like this forever
I'm just too scarred and scared
So I give up

I guess I wasn't able to
Keep you around for long
It was meant to be though
We will both be strong

I don't want to feel
Like this tomorrow
I'm just to scarred and scared
That I may be hollow

Where do we go from here
I just want to move forward
No more of this fear
Can't I just let it be over

I don't want to feel
Like I'm nothing
But I'm so scarred
and I'm so scared
Let me believe in something