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An Elemental Dream 

The smallest movement is the one that gets noticed,

So I try to run with grandeur
Because I've grown fond of the invisibility.
I only need to know my own direction.
Or I can soar with a gust of wind.
Set me past the clouds
Be careful not to drop me now.
A whirlwind affair that easily sets me anywhere
Cast me into the deepest sea,
Mariana Trench will you marry me?
Keep me cradled in you breast
As I sleep through my eternal rest.
Fill my lungs with the purest waves
Or I shall seek the brightest burning flames
As I walk through searing tongues
So the heat licks my body numb
With the coals no longer black
They glow deep reds and crumble into ash
The softest gray silt I've ever touched
Never have I longed for anything so much
But to lay my head upon the dust
So I may dream, and scheme, and lust
But all of this is one grand lie
I don't know why I even try
Because I'm still here invisible to you all
I do not move
Not an inch, not a mile, not at all.

Accept No Substitutes
Upon a hazy July morning
He knelt to smell the roses
Just to notice all the wrong
About face he retreated homeward
Only to find his weapon of choice
He released the fearful blows
But still she smiled strongly
As the plaster chipped from her lips
Those piercing eyes that he created
The work of stone is just a dream
Now let me bleed my thoughts upon you
Some tragedies end in happiness
The truth he began to see is
He knew the beauty of dreams
But it is always better to hold and touch
...the real thing.

 It Wasn't Me 

Never mind the yellow tape
I'll be cautious for the both of us
Don't be bothered by the flashing lights
If its a problem we can always hide
Just keep on running dear youre doing fine
But keep up the pace we're not too far now
Its about that time and then the fires spread
Please brace yourself I need you so
I couldnt fight the same without you near
The traps were set but we must hide
The want to make it seem like you and I
Are masterminds to a destructive game
But dead or alive we're worth just the same
 
Corrections 

Ive vowed to remember those I've harmed
Count the notches on my club
If I see you amongst the crowd
My weapon is now yours
Make of me what you will

If this is what it takes
To save others from my heavy hand
I'll do what must be done
Use my face as a target
I'll keep count of every swing for you
I just need you to count my stitches
Hold no grudge I've let mine go
I lower my head to take every blow

When I walk away from this
We'll both be better people
I've given up on giving pain
Have you given up on taking it
The only way to save ourselves
Is to take torture we have dealt
Then everything will all make sense
Id give it all up to take it all back
Now that Ive seen my wrongs
 

A Withered End

I can see everything so clearly
As I'm looking through her eyes
What was it that made you run so far
This one is the answer to all of man's problems
I need to free my thoughts; unleashed,
As they are confined to these padded walls
Clarity is all that I asked for
And she is the crutch Ive needed
She has the touch that has left me feeling...

Drained of all my humanly ideals
Not even enough to walk on two legs
I now understand her pain; I crawl
On hands and feet I ran a distance
Tired; torn and bloodied, rest is not an option
Although this is near unbearable I stop
Retrace my steps I know she hurts as well
All whom she touches will suffer
Yet I've found the pain so comforting

Again I can stand, my thoughts again whole
I have become an enlightened soul
Nothing can challenge the strength of our tie
I can see through any adversity
She will revert your world back to silence
We have found our reasons to exist
I the sightless have the light of the world
Her darkness has been overcome
Together we wither away

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Many of us float on
Anonymous to all but ourselves
no desire to be found again
No desire to ever be known
The ones we loved are lost
To us, The vanished with our hearts
Undiscovered we chose to remain
As solitude is our only friend

While we may be nameless
We once had labels
But float along we live on
Toward the sunset of our memories

Play for Keeps

My bandages keep my pieces from separating
Fragmented, I've lost plenty on the road most avoid
I've never been a wise one to gambling
A deck of cards would have sufficed
Not for me, spin the roulette wheel for life
Play for keeps, what was once a game is so much worse
The concept is simple, the consequences drastic
When the wheel stops the hammer is tossed
A handful of metal, smoke and pain is what remains
I once heard that a bullet never lies
Sometimes it doesn't completely destroy
But shatters all that lies in its path
Now here i stand feebly and mummified
Not quite alive or well but breathing
Once my recovery is complete
I just may return for another spin

Weakness of a God

I was blown away once
The smile worn filtered the debris
Shrapnel grazed across finger tips
I once was invincible
Those days are far beyond past tense
Metamorphosis is not saved for insects
Rather than adding to my impervious skin
I was robbed of my gift; my curse
Riddled with holes, feeling has returned
Leaving me human.

Into the Darkness of Slumber


Sleepless thoughts cloud my judgment,
Difficulty separating fact from fiction,
Tidal waves of delusioned ideas flood,
While my brain sponges and absorbs obscurities,
I travel through my fantasy world blindly,
A place haunted with myriads of nightmares,
One never needs sight in their own thoughts,
Extra sensory pulses pull me to the core,
At the heart of it all lies a puzzle,
A many faceted game of complex proportions,
My walking fingers twist and pry,
The game untampered is but a lock,
But when defeated it gives light an opportunity,
To exist and mingle among the tarnished,
Offering a mild tranquility to my troubled mind,
Like a cool breeze through the desert heat,
Shedding its glow to even the most minute corners,
Pleasantries are welcomed at any time,
Yet this moment the most sought artform,
Is the involuntary creation of a dream,
With heavy eyes and clearer vision,
I slumber calmer than the ancient dead.




Many doubts!!

I watch the passers by and wonder,
where do I belong in this whole charade.
We follow motions but for what purpose,
and we wear our masks to hide our face.
Is there a cure for all our worries,
Something undiscovered or left unsaid,
A miracle to keep us going,
A cure that keeps as far from death.
We search and struggle with empty pockets,
Some still stand and others crumble.
When all our answers are far from simple,
Hands in prayer, people humble.
Again within me I hold my doubt,
I've learned to keep faith unwavering
But my mind tells me otherwise,
Not to trust, not to be saved.
Its hard for me to leave it all,
My cross still hangs in place.
Am I so wrong for not believing,
Every single word i've heard?
So here I am now, at a point,
I can't see which way to turn!
But I know that I am not alone,
Others have been here berfore.
What did they choose, should I follow?
All these thoughts become a chore.
So as I lay my head and drift,
I try to recall some of my prayers,
Were they at all answered,
No they weren't, not completely,
Well that's what I saw to say the least,
God must have skipped me.
But who really knows maybe he's waiting,
Until I really need help, and then he will save me.
But who really knows, I have no real clue,
Who, What and Where is this god all about?
So I turn off my mind and go on with my habits,
Our Father, Amen,Good Night, and I'm out.